Lead Me

You don’t have to be a professional sports player to be on a team and you don’t need to have a C on your jersey to be a leader. A family is a team and there are certain responsibilities that come along with that commitment that make you a leader.

Was in prayer when I heard the song “Lead Me”by Sanctus Real when a conversation with a pastor I had from the day before started to echo in my heart. Basically he told me that you can serve in any job that you do. This hit me at first because I want to be a youth pastor but am working in a hospital. But after hearing this song I took those comments in another way.

I have a wife and children that I must be a leader for. 1 Timothy 5:8 “But if anyone does not provide for his relatives, and especially for members of his household, he has denied the faith and is worse than an unbeliever.” I am responsible for my family. Through the help of the Holy Spirit I must keep a faithful eye on them, always. One thing we lack as a family is a constant daily devotion and a church home. Also I am always concerned about being a light for the Lord (Mat 5:16) for others but never stop to think, do I shine my light so that my family can see the Lord?

Our Father in Heaven used my wife to reach me and since that is how I came to know my Savoir I think I never stop to check on her. I always just assume that she is ok. The first part of the song “Lead Me” goes:

I look around and see my wonderful life

Almost perfect from the outside

In picture frames I see my beautiful wife

Always smiling

But on the inside, I can hear her saying…

Lead me with strong hands

Stand up when I can't

Don't leave me hungry for love

Chasing dreams, what about us?

She is struggling with her relationship with the Lord. From my actions in the past of not wanting her to worship God (I wasn’t always right with God people, I have and still make millions of mistakes) and from our last church experience and how our pastor treated her, she is hurting. I ask you all, who ever reads this to pray for healing in her heart.

We have tried out multiple churches and we feel led that our search is coming to an end. We recently bought a Veggie Tales Biblethat we started to read as a family last night. It was a powerful time spent as a family. I feel God calling me to be closer to Him by involving my family. We are a team; if one fails we all fail. Another part of the song goes:

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes

They're just children from the outside

I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine

They're independent

But on the inside, I can hear them saying…

God is using this song to speak to me. I look for motivation in so many things and when I least expect it God uses a song that I have been listening to for a while to reach my heart. And the last part of the song I want to use as a prayer:

So Father, give me the strength

To be everything I'm called to be

Oh, Father, show me the way

To lead them

Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands

To stand up when they can't

Don't want to leave them hungry for love,

Chasing things that I could give up