I’m a woman who knew better. A woman who turned her back on God years ago by remaining in a physically abusive relationship. I felt as if I’d landed myself smack-dab right in the middle of a Sunday afternoon Lifetime movie. I heard things like, “You don’t matter,” “You were made for me to abuse,” “No one will ever love you like I do.”
Horrific but true.
For so long I believe these lies about myself. I carry them like heavy weights that continually push and jerk my head down in shame. I think, “God, will never take me back after this.”
“Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces.” ~Ps. 34:5
Back then, I am a frantic girl, unsure of her-self. I need God to wipe my tears, repair my broken heart, and heal bruises make-up won’t cover. I desperately desire to be my Father’s baby-girl again, but how? How can I ever feel worthy to come into His Holy presence? How can my prayers reach His throne room? I feel too dirty to even ask for forgiveness. Satan makes me believe I never can.
But did you know– God never left me? He noticed me even when I felt invisible.
When unspeakable pain gripped me, God gripped harder.
When I had no fight left, He fought for me.
When I felt un-lovable, He showered His love upon me.
God says, “You will always be my baby-girl, no matter what.”
At the time, I thought God probably fell out of love with me. The truth is, I never stopped being my Father’s babygirl… not even for a second! No amount of abuse, depression, or wrong choices could ever make God stop loving me.
I’m sharing this piece of myself because I thought maybe you’re like me. Maybe you too need to be reminded of how special you are to God.
Do you know you’re special? Not because the Bible says so, but because you consistently experience it through a personal relationship with Christ?
9But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.”
~1 Peter 2:9 (New King James Version)
Please don’t miss this y’all…
The same God that is seated on His throne right now thinks you’re special. The One who breathed life into the universe is pausing just for you. Don’t waste another brain cell thinking you aren’t special. You are! God thinks so– now it’s time to live like you believe it too!