I tried to find inner peace with the stopgap habits of eating disorders and gluttony. A stop gap is a temporary substitute we use to replace what we really need. I really needed a personal relationship with Jesus, but I didn’t know that. No stopgap can offer the everlasting piece of the Christ.
The act of bulimia did bring me peace for a few minutes, but all too soon the same fears, anxieties and troubles resurfaced and then the whole cycle repeated itself.
Then someone introduced me to Jesus. I asked him to forgive my sin, and I began a personal relationship with him. I’d like to say that I stopped my destructive stopgap habits immediately but little by little, I did move farther away from them and closer to Jesus. As my faith in Christ grew, so did my peace and eventually I was able to give up those stopgaps completely. What a relief.
I don’t even miss those things now, because I know where to find that Jesus peace, the kind that passes all understanding.
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7,KJV)
Prayer-Lord, give us the courage to choose you over any temporary substitute invading our lives. Give us the wisdom and the courage to choose Jesus over any temporary needs. Amen.