The encouragement and support you desire has always been right here with you, waiting on You.
“My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.” Psalms 121:2 (NIV)
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8 (NIV)
“Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.” Revelations 3:20 (NIV)
I just finished reading a biography on Susanna Wesley. I hope to read more books like this one soon. Susanna Wesley was the mother of John Wesley and Charles Wesley, She was pregnant 17 times, two sets of twins both died, six others died right after birth, of the nine living, one dies while she is in childbirth, most of all the girls have bad marriages or no marriage, but through all the hardships of poverty, great debt and great sorrow throughout their lives both Susanna and her husband, Samuel, stayed strong in their faith and convictions.
The lessons I learned from reading this book are, in my opinion, are unmeasurable. Throughout my lifetime, all 38 years of it so far, I have WANTED and LONGED to find someone that fully understand me. I have not found that person yet, nor do I think I ever will. It's very lonely sometimes. You see I am Quiverfull. It was a personal decision. I do not push my personal convictions. At least I hope I don't. What's right for me may not be right for you and that's O.K. However, I do not know another person in my area that believes as I do. I'm sure they are out there, but for whatever reason, God has kept us from each other. I guess he needs to deal with each of us in His own way and in His own time. Maybe, when we are ready, he'll bring us together.
Reading this book, the Susanna Wesley story, I observed how Susanna Wesley and her husband Samuel, who was a minister shared nothing personal about their lives with anyone but God. They took everything to God. They did not share their burdens or their problems with anyone except each other and God.
I'm beginning to feel that is what God is asking of me. It's like, “Amy, you've been looking in the wrong places for your support and encouragement. Come to ME!”
God is to be my best friend in the whole universe next to my husband. God and my husband should be the ones I talk everything over with. God should be the one I take every need, desire, want, and petition to. In my case, I often lack patience, contentment, trust and security. These are the things I've learned to ask God for.
“Lord please give me the peace that passeth all understanding. Help me to remain strong in my faith. Please continue to give me patience, contentment, knowledge and wisdom. Help me to be a good wife, mother and friend. Take all my hurts and past scars and fill me with your loving grace. Guide me in the way I should go dear Lord. I am yours and you are mine. Thank you Lord for choosing me and loving me.” Amen
God has blessed me with so much, my salvation, my husband, my children, and God meets all of our needs. I stand in awe at the works of his hands. He fills me with his Words, especially the Psalms,& Proverbs, and constantly brings scriptures and songs of encouragement to my mind. I pray and I watch, with eyes wide open, I listen and I learn, and slowly, ever so slowly, only in God's timing, The emptiness I once felt is slowly being replaced by a love and grace and peace that no human could ever give, My greatest support and encouragement in what I feel called and led to do comes from God. I hope these words have inspired you to go to God first.
But in these most hardest issues of personal convictions and issues concerning one's calling and beliefs,
I'm learning the one who will encourage you and support you the most is the one who did the calling in the first place; God the father, Jesus Christ, Savior and Lord. You are going to have obstacles. People are going to be cruel, insensitive, and downright rude.Some may think you've gone nuts, crazy, fanatical, etc.
It doesn't matter what other people think, say or do. Keep your eyes on Christ. Make Jesus the center of your life. Be devoted to God, your spouse and your families. Stay strong in your faith and your convictions that you are doing exactly what God has planned for you to do. God has a special plan for each of us.
We all have special jobs to do within the body to work together in Christ for the glory of the Lord.
You are always going to run into people who do not understand your choices or your life…but you don't understand theirs either. One of the greatest things I think I will someday accomplish is when I mature enough in Christ to love everyone despite our differences and disagreements. I'm not there yet, I humbly admit that. I'm still wanting everyone to understand me, but maybe someday……………..
Your Love Is A Song – Switchfoot, (Keeping My Eyes Wide Open- All Your Love Is A Symphony)